Family part deux.
Some of you may remember when I discussed my attempt to contact my biological mother. Well, yesterday I received a reply. A letter arrived confirming that I have the right person. So I now have some information regarding my medical history. Nothing big other than a history of cancer, and not much I can do about that other than keeping my risk factors down. It is good to know that there are no other hidden medical issues.
My biological mother doesn't wish any additional contact with me, and I accept that. My reason for contacting her has been fulfilled, I have my medical history so this is not a problem. I also understand her reasons for not wanting contact at this time. Given the manner of my conception, I can hardly blame her.
The only issue I now have to resolve in within myself. I need to resolve my existence with the great evil that caused it. I understand that both my biological mother and I have no blame in any of this, but I still have to reconcile this in my head. It's as if I now suddenly owe a huge karmic debt that I could never hope to repay. I think I'm going to need some time to sort this out.